Guesses

How many guesses do I get?

How many guesses do I get before your voice explodes in my ear?
Before I have absolutely nothing left to fear?
How many guesses do I have before it’s your egg shells I must walk upon?
Before I decide I really need to get gone?

How many damn times before I finally learn?
Before I my self decide to turn.
How many times will you destroy me before I care enough to pick up what you shattered?
Before I am nothing left but a pile of used, abused, and completely tattered?

How many guesses do I get in this game you are playing?
Before I refuse the last time to keep on staying?
How many times must I play before I can win?
Before I seen truly all that has been?

How many guesses do I have before I must face the consequence of your pain?
Before I care more about what I have to gain?
How many times must I second guess myself?
Before I feel I’m no longer a disposable product on your shelf?

How many guesses before you bash my head against the wall?
Before I decide it’s time to firmly stand tall?
How many guesses do I get?
Please tell me, how many guesses do I get?